Answering the Calling of My Soul

As a little girl, I idolized my aunts who were nuns and I loved going to church and singing and feeling so inspired and uplifted. I enjoyed talking to the angels and spirits that I saw in church and in my house. I especially loved talking to God. I thought everyone did. It was a rude awakening to be punished at age 6 for “making things up” and “imagining things.” And as a result, I shut down my natural abilities in order to fit in with “normal” people. This worked on the outside, but as I grew up I secretly longed to live a spiritual life and to use my natural psychic abilities to help myself and others.

Then, five years ago, a lifetime of repression finally caught up with me. I was a successful professional with advanced scientific degrees (BA, MA and PhD) and a good job teaching at the local college, but something was missing. I was happy with my husband and kids, but my relationships with my father and siblings started breaking down. I was basically healthy and active, but I started having weird illnesses (lingering colds, kidney stones, random nausea) popping up out of the blue. And then, when a friend I hadn’t seen in a while asked me how I’d been, I blurted out: “If I don’t become a psychic, my life will be wasted!” And I started crying. It was a crazy thing to say, but deep in my heart, I knew it was true.

I realized that my crying and my illnesses and my unfulfilled dreams were my soul trying to get my attention. A line from a song I’d heard years ago ran through my head: “What if we’re all meant to do what we secretly dream? What would you ask if you knew you could have anything?” I secretly dreamed of talking to animals and helping people see the bigger, spiritual picture that I could access with my intuition. What if I really could do those things that I longed for so deeply?

Somehow, that song propelled me on a vision quest straight to the center of my soul. First, I began a yearlong psychic training program in order to rekindle my dormant intuitive talent. In class, I learned how to read auras, balance chakras, and even do intuitive readings blindfolded! My natural abilities not only returned, they blossomed with all the regular time and attention and training.

At the same time, I enrolled in a master’s degree program in Spiritual Psychology. At the University of Santa Monica, I spent two years focused on my spiritual growth and personal evolution. I immersed myself in healing past traumas and current upsets while upgrading my little instruction book on how to do this thing called life. I had a total paradigm shift from focusing only on what I can see and touch to understanding the spiritual context of my life and the spiritual glue that holds everything together — love. Spiritual transformation was so addictive that I added a third year of graduate work in Consciousness, Health and Healing, diving deep into the intersection of body, mind, and spirit.

Once my training was complete, I felt like a radiant butterfly emerging from my healing academic cocoon. And before I knew it, my dream came true! I became a professional Spiritual Intuitive, offering readings for animals and people.

My life has done a complete 180 and I am so grateful to that nagging doubt and vague sense of dissatisfaction that led me to where I am now. Professionally, I have my dream job that is satisfying and meaningful beyond measure. Physically, my health has improved in every way. And I now understand the dynamics of all of my relationships and feel empowered to bring my best self to every interaction with everyone I encounter — family, friends and even strangers.

My sense of inner freedom and self-expression are priceless and as my cups overflows with love and happiness, I find that I want to spread the extra around. That is why I naturally began teaching my family, friends and clients the intuitive and spiritual tools that I used to make my life better.

And, of course, I integrate everything I’ve learned into all my readings and programs to help everyone explore the ecstasy of their own spirit.

I’d love to hear about your journey to answer the call of your soul. In the comments below, please share your answer. What did you do? How are you different now?

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